Monologue : How, how and how (Fix You)

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

Some says we could never get what we want. Yes, it's true. Some also says that even we're not getting what we want, we would eventually end up with what we need. Wanting and needing, two different way things work. How do I know there are other things meant for me when there is something else in my mind, though? How do I know the time to give up chasing? How do I know it's not worth it waiting? How?

Some even says that we should not focus too much on the destination for we might miss the moment we're going through. Does it even mean that taking a longer route than others' do worth it, as long as I live the moment? What if I don't and still, I'm going for the same destination, and undeniably reach later? Is it really worth or is it just a dumb action, knowing that I could have actually walk along others, reach earlier but chose the other way that doesn't work the way I want? Oh yes, I do get that people make mistakes, and I'm included.

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But, goddammit, how do I know it's worth chasing when time is killing??? How do I know it's the right thing wanting when all the responsibilities are threatening? Life isn't just about living it, as there are others clinging on us in it, right?

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Stop fooling yourself around. Stop being so arrogant. Stop being so stupid to work on alone not to burden others when you know you just cant. You just cant. You were blind and proud to realize it before.

Dear Heart, please be brave enough to make one last, risky, foolish act. Please. Please. Please. Your life depends on it.


p.s : you are screwed up.
p.s.s : I don't wanna regret.