The Day of Blurriness

today, i woke up as usual, continuing my life...
as i was leaving for the school, some-damned-thing happened...
my spec was missing~!
urgh...
what a morning...
i sought for it everywhere ( i suppose..n i forgot the proverb to be used here! dammit again)...
it wasn't a lucky search, anyway...
i just set out in blurriness to school, hoping it wouldn't make my day bad...
seyh...

for ****, today, we had learnt a new topic, only in 15 minutes ( that's what my **** teacher said)..
he then repeated those words 5 minutes later...
urh, whatever...i had to squint at the whiteboard but it was hopeless...
uh..my spec~
i also got something beneficial during the biology...
we can't answer the exam with 'rojak' sentences...
it goes the same with Daved Copperfield's name...
it can't be translated into Daud Padang Tembaga...
well...he was right then..
and..today..i had to enter SRC room with the same way...
how could they...nevermind...

2 pm...we were ambushed at our base...
seyh...a letter had arrived for this Saturday events...
damn...how could it be that late...
and, as i was told, Cikgu ****** sought me as ever...
urgh...got something to do then..
relaxing find the preys...
seyh...

currently addicted to マイボスマイヒーロー (My Boss My Hero)...
it's a damn great movie...
and it seems that i'm carried away with it~
(this damned 'damn' word~)
trying to finish the available episodes smoke ASAP...

(i am no good in english..with a great lackness of vocabs..gotta start opening books again)

Hurm...

hari ini aku balik awal daripada biasa...
umi aku pun da pesan , "Balik awal la sekali sekala" pagi tadi...
da malas da nak duk lelama kat sekolah tu...

masa pi bilik SRC td, teacher ramlah panggil...
dia suh simpan barang² untuk persiapan dewan bagi kuiz besok lam bilik tu..
tapi terkunci lak...
entah nape la awal sangat hari ini...
aku pun tak tahu tapi aku tetap kena masuk gak bilik tu..
nak ambik topi...
so, aku terpaksa la guna laluan rahsia..
ambik beg hidayat sekali...
dia memang ******* la ngan Si Pemegang Kunci tadi..
lepas tu aku pun terus balik umah..

lepas je makan n pe2..
tak pasal2 aku lak kena tolong settlekan kerja kursus adik aku...
erm..tak pew larh...
sampai je umah dari farisma, aku terus on9...

n aku pun start pikir balik pasal mende tu...
hurm...
nampaknya memang aku la yang salah...
selfish...
denying other's rights...
maybe ayat² pendek semalam bukannya conclusion...
tapi sekurang-kurangnya aku takkan buat lebeyh banyak salah da...
da tak sanggup...
aku pun baru tahu ada kayu balak jatuh kat tengah jalan...
sejak bila lagi tak tahu la...
kekadang ada gak la terlintas...
so, aku pun menerawang la ke sana ke mari...
tapi aku tak nak pikir lagi mende nih...
buat masa nih...
aku tak sanggup dah...
tak sanggup...

aku nak tengok balik jalan yang aku da lama ignore...
jalan aku...
destinasi aku...

The L Day Starts

urh..
what a day...
ari ni dapat lg results pekse ari 2...
teruk2 belake...
adeyhs...
i'm really in a critical situation...
buat malu je dapat anugerah ari tu..
tahun ni sume down..
argh...

ari ni pi ambik lesen...
3.40 pm..lesen tu da pun ada kat tangan aku...
n beberapa minit sebelum kul 4...
aku da langgar lampu merah dua kali...
seyh...
teruk...
pastu teruskan mission mencari sebuah rumah yang mana berhasil lebeyh kurang 20 minit kemudian...

balik umah ari ni check hp...
da lama da x dengar tone message...
xde sms, missed calls...
erm...biarlah...
no one to bother...
top up pn malas da...
pasang internet...
and type post nih...
masa ngah menaip ni...
ada gak yang pm aku setelah akaun aku sunyi dari sebarang IM's buat sekian lama...
seyh..
waiting for tomorrow...
with a different 'spirit', i suppose...
or am I losing it now?
uh...

Selesai Sudah

urgh..
the another day for today...
lepas abis Majlis Peletakan Batu Asas semalam...
punya la relaks rasanya...
rasa mengantuk sewaktu ucapan semalam terus hilang selepas tunjuk slide ari tu..
duh..
yang tensennya...
mesti ramai orang nampak aku tersengguk-sengguk depan laptop kat atas stage tu...
argh~!
giler...jangan ada orang ambik gambar aku sudah...
dah ler tempat tu terbuka...
seyh...

lepas je Tuk Guru pi kat tapak asrama..
ak terus ke computer lab computer and bermulalah proses tidur dari kul 11 sampai ler kul 3...
seyh...lama giler...lega lak rasa lepas tak cukup tido 2 3 hari...
yang x beznya..balik umah pun terus sambung tido...
seyh~

Recently...

Urgh...
something has struck me recently..
(or a bit earlier)
I don't know what it is but I may know why..
seyh...
thought that I had the urge to leave something that i hope that i would never have to...
be that as it may, it could be the best solution..
(i guess)
no one will be blamed...
and most importantly no one will hurt...
I am not that selfish to protect what i want...
i hate to do this...
it is a must, though..
for other's sake...